Learning

Here I sit extremely sunburned with an orange, a vitamin water, and a whiskey diluted with flat coke on a Monday after midnight. *Side note: "Monday after midnight" would be a great name for a band. It would be better than the name of the band that I served tonight at Batter'd...I'm just saying. Plus the alliteration gives it a certain je ne sais quoi.* I am an odd duck for sure. I am attempting to decompress from the past few days. I have had a very eventful weekend the details of which I will not bore you with at this time. Let me just say that it was the best of times and the worst of times (I may have borrowed that line). I did begin to write a blog on Saturday only to get interrupted by a surprise visit from my uncle and my cousin. I will post that soon but tonight as I sit in my dining room with my head swimming with booze and thought I simply want to blog about what I am learning about me. I know what you're thinking, "WTF? Why do I want to hear about her personal revelations?" I answer you with this, "Because I am AWESOME!"

First, I would like to note that having this blog has been a really great tool to help me learn more about myself and how I operate. I realized very early on that despite my best of intentions I do not like routine, thus I don't blog every day. I also realized that I like to work really hard for a short period of time so that I can relax and enjoy myself for a long period of time, thus my blogs tend to be longer or attempt to tackle a lot in one post and they occur infrequently. I have learned that I really am an inconsistent perfectionist. I will write and revise, and then write and revise, just to write and revise some more until I am so overwhelmed with the revisions and writing that I just post something completely different unrevised and it usually is not as quality. Then I learned that I get distracted easily. It doesn't take much to drag me away from a project or task particularly if there is not a definite goal or an external pressure. This also explains the inconsistency of my posts. *Side note: BTW the orange is finished now, wrapped in the pure white grace of the paper towel. I have now moved on to stale tortilla chips.* Finally, I have learned that I have the ability to justify anything. I can see most if not all sides of an argument. I can work the angles. Sometimes I use this power for good and other times I use it for evil. This not only explains how sporadic my blogging has become it also explains this entire post.